The other day I was parked somewhere waiting on my kids- probably at the school about to pee on myself- and I caught a glimpse of this guy walking down the highway. He looked like he was in his late 20’s. He had a very large backpack on. The kind that carries all you would need to live. And I literally stared at him walking for quite a few minutes towards the mountains. And I said out loud “lucky dude”.
I used to live to go to the mall. Or Target. Or out to eat. I love make up and dressing up and heels and parties. I do. Still. But as Ive gotten older my dreams have changed and I think thats ok. I was doing a quick solo hike yesterday and so wished I could just hike all day everyday. There was a time I suppose my big dream was a big house on a lake and fancy furniture and a house that looked like a Pottery Barn magazine. It was a nice dream and there is nothing wrong with it at all. Its just if I could have my dream life right now, today….I would have a nice cabin on a mountain and every day I would eat breakfast, hike to the local Mom & Pop restaurant for lunch & a beer, hike another few hours and then go to the local dive bar for dinner, music and another beer. And thats it. That would be my day. Every day. with the occasional flight to Mexico for my beach fix. Thats it.
So funny. I was looking in my Senior Scrap book from High School since my reunion is next month. And under “where do you see yourself in 20 years” I wrote “in a house in Colorado”.
I love being around people. I love parties and events and girls’ nights out and concerts and all of that. I really really do. But I am absolutely my happiest in some hiking shoes and a hat 10,000 feet above sea level. And my youngest child is a Freshman in High School. And I have a growing business that I started that is giving a reality to that dream. I cannot believe it. I can’t. In four years I can go anywhere I want. Do anything I want to do. Live anywhere. And it is completely up to me. The beauty of this country is that you ABSOLUTELY can do anything you set your mind to. There is no limitation. If you feel stuck, smothered, trapped….then MOVE. MOVE. You are not a tree. You have legs and a brain and opportunities that millions in other countries don’t have. The ONLY thing limiting you is you. I limited myself for a long, long time. There was a plan on paper- 2.5 kids, house in the burbs, dog, nice retirement plan, yearly vacations. And again- there was absolutely nothing at all wrong with that dream. NOTHING. But sometimes you can plan and plan and be set that the story will end a particular way…..and then life hands you some shit. Or some brain rot.
So dreams can evolve and change and just like me they can grow. And a yearly vacation isn’t enough. You want to LIVE in a vacation. And maybe being a gypsy wandering around the mountains isn’t your dream. But its pretty damn cool you can dream whatever you want.
It is a good day to dream. It is a good day to start making that dream come true. It is a good day.
And being a gypsy sounds pretty cool! The things you find, discover and leave on mountain would amaze you. Its like every hike cleanses your soul. How cool it is to start fresh each day. My Dad would’ve loved that.
“I know he’d be a poorer man if he never saw an eagle fly”, John Denver ‘Rocky Mountain High’